To Be a Better ME!!

I have been fighting depression for a few years now. I totally hate to admit it, but here I am and there it is...I totally know why too.  I have a lot of weight to lose to get down to my comfortable weight which I haven't been in 7 years, I got close 17 lbs away but not quite there. Up until now I've made up excuses, first it was the the bed rest with Pregnancy, then it was lack of time and health issues!! I'm done with excuses done, done, done!!! I'm tired of thinking about my weight every hour of everyday!!

I hate that I've let myself get this way, I studied health and nutrition in college and I've been though the weight loss process before. After I had Damien I lost 50 lbs with weight watchers and walking and power 90. I had never felt better. I walked around knowing I was doing everything possible to stay in shape. When people would ask me what motivated me my response was "If I don't take care of myself Chris will find someone else that does" It sounds bad but that's what would keep me going that's what made me push towards my goal. I remember walking around so confident nothing bothered me at all!!! I was in such a peaceful place, I'm yearning for that feeling again!!!

I have recently started high intensity interval training and I have been counting calories. Realizing that my body is in severe starvation Mode from only eating 600-800 calories a day of carbs. sugar, more carbs. and more sugar. Counting calories hasn't really been that hard I've been using www.myfitnesspal.com this website is great!!! This website has every type of food your looking for. It keeps track of the exercise and everything. You can request friends, It's kind of like facebook with updates, and you can see their food diaries if they have it viewable. I was going to start weight watcher's online for 15.00 a month. I'm so glad I found this app on my Droid Phone I LOVE IT and *** It's FREEE***

With taking my Xyng, I never feel like I'm going without food and the Xyng makes it so I don't crave sweets so it's working out great!! I can't wait till Monday when I can weight in and see my little ticker chart go down!!!

While the Mom is Away

While the Cat's away the mice will play. Well more like Mom and dog but still...

Today I was sorting laundry in my bedroom and halfway through I had to leave to get dinner made and when I left Chopper (my BIG dog) was in the bedroom. About an hour later I tried to walk into my room and I couldn't get in  ??? I pushed the door and to my surprise there was something blocking it. I reached around the door and the pile of clothes I had just sorted were blocking the door, so I moved them out of the way and opened the door and there was Chopper starring right at me with his head what I call the "I just caused trouble and I hope she doesn't notice" position IE THE LOOK OF SHAME!!

Anyway I look over at my bed and could totally tell he had just jumped off of it. What a little stinker, he had barricaded the door so he would have time to get off the bed so I wouldn't notice!!! I think I was in too much of shock and awe to get mad at him. He literally pushed a load of clothes 4 feet. Although I had to change the sheets it was nothing compared to the big pile of crap ON OUR BED that we came home to after a week in Disneyland. My little Brother was dog sitting and the last day he came to pick us up from the airport and the last thing he said to Chopper was "I'm going to get your family" so Chopper must have thought "I'm going to show them for not taking me, here's this steaming pile of crap!!"  This dog literally thinks he is a human and no different than the kids!!! Like he should be with us everywhere we go!!!