To Be a Better ME!!

I have been fighting depression for a few years now. I totally hate to admit it, but here I am and there it is...I totally know why too.  I have a lot of weight to lose to get down to my comfortable weight which I haven't been in 7 years, I got close 17 lbs away but not quite there. Up until now I've made up excuses, first it was the the bed rest with Pregnancy, then it was lack of time and health issues!! I'm done with excuses done, done, done!!! I'm tired of thinking about my weight every hour of everyday!!

I hate that I've let myself get this way, I studied health and nutrition in college and I've been though the weight loss process before. After I had Damien I lost 50 lbs with weight watchers and walking and power 90. I had never felt better. I walked around knowing I was doing everything possible to stay in shape. When people would ask me what motivated me my response was "If I don't take care of myself Chris will find someone else that does" It sounds bad but that's what would keep me going that's what made me push towards my goal. I remember walking around so confident nothing bothered me at all!!! I was in such a peaceful place, I'm yearning for that feeling again!!!

I have recently started high intensity interval training and I have been counting calories. Realizing that my body is in severe starvation Mode from only eating 600-800 calories a day of carbs. sugar, more carbs. and more sugar. Counting calories hasn't really been that hard I've been using www.myfitnesspal.com this website is great!!! This website has every type of food your looking for. It keeps track of the exercise and everything. You can request friends, It's kind of like facebook with updates, and you can see their food diaries if they have it viewable. I was going to start weight watcher's online for 15.00 a month. I'm so glad I found this app on my Droid Phone I LOVE IT and *** It's FREEE***

With taking my Xyng, I never feel like I'm going without food and the Xyng makes it so I don't crave sweets so it's working out great!! I can't wait till Monday when I can weight in and see my little ticker chart go down!!!

While the Mom is Away

While the Cat's away the mice will play. Well more like Mom and dog but still...

Today I was sorting laundry in my bedroom and halfway through I had to leave to get dinner made and when I left Chopper (my BIG dog) was in the bedroom. About an hour later I tried to walk into my room and I couldn't get in  ??? I pushed the door and to my surprise there was something blocking it. I reached around the door and the pile of clothes I had just sorted were blocking the door, so I moved them out of the way and opened the door and there was Chopper starring right at me with his head what I call the "I just caused trouble and I hope she doesn't notice" position IE THE LOOK OF SHAME!!

Anyway I look over at my bed and could totally tell he had just jumped off of it. What a little stinker, he had barricaded the door so he would have time to get off the bed so I wouldn't notice!!! I think I was in too much of shock and awe to get mad at him. He literally pushed a load of clothes 4 feet. Although I had to change the sheets it was nothing compared to the big pile of crap ON OUR BED that we came home to after a week in Disneyland. My little Brother was dog sitting and the last day he came to pick us up from the airport and the last thing he said to Chopper was "I'm going to get your family" so Chopper must have thought "I'm going to show them for not taking me, here's this steaming pile of crap!!"  This dog literally thinks he is a human and no different than the kids!!! Like he should be with us everywhere we go!!!

I LoVe my Chiro!!!

Oh wow we have had a crazy week!! As bad as I hate to talk about it we have come down with the "CRUD" It started about 2 weeks ago and Gage started coughing, it always makes me a little nervous when he gets sick because he has asthma and he seems to catch pneumonia with every cold he gets. He missed that Monday of school, but he was OK to go back for the rest of the week. He finally stopped coughing 4 days ago! Well then last Monday Angelee came down with it. It has been her first cold in a long time almost two years!!! On Tuesday she was fevering about 104.0
I decided to take her in to the doc. but ended up at urgent care (never again) they were so rude. I was keeping her temp down with showers and rags about every 2 hours we got in and let the water run down her face to get the snot out. I slacked off for about 5 hours :( When I went to put her in and her little hands were cold and blotchy so I thought she needed to be seen. I get her there and they take her back doc looks in ONE ear and
doc says "yep ear infection, have you given her anything for her fever?"
ME "NO she's never had any Tylenol EVER"
doc "Well her temp is close to seizure"
ME "Well let's do something about that, do you have any Tylenol?" because no mother wants to put their       child in danger.
He literally walked out the room without saying anything to me and sent the m.a. in with some Tylenol.
That was it.....I walked out with a prescription and that was it....... As I walked past him he says "that ear will most likely rupture by the end of the day."
As I walked out the door tears came to my eyes, that was the most awful experience I've EVER had with a doc. and the fact that I caved and gave her Tylenol when I know that fevers are a good thing it's the bodies way of boosting the immune system. I could go on and on about fevers. I also know that febrile seizures are not that common and when they do seizure it's not a big deal.
Any way as I left I passed our chiropractor's office and thought "well he helped her chronic ear infections 2 years ago MAYBE he could do something this time." I walked in and they got her back right away.
The Doctor came in and he adjusted her picked her up and he listened to me cry about the Tylenol and he said "well I usually go by the 4-5 day rule if their not showing significant improvement,  take other measures, that gives the body time to recognize the problem and approach it how it is meant to."
I love this guy!!!! The entire time he's talking to me he is cradling Ang. it was about 15 min of him reassuring me that that she's going to be fine. I was beating myself up pretty bad about the Tylenol,
he said "hun you are doing better than about 99% of parents out there, you are making her body take action and building her immune system"  Man I left there feeling so confident it was totally different then leaving the urgent care, beaten down!
Well I know what herbs to treat ear infections with naturally the best is chiropractic because it aligns everything so the tubes can drain. I had felt like she needed to get adjusted for a few months, it had been about 2 years.
Anyway by Thursday totally different kid. Mom didn't slack on the showers and she's doing great!!!
Then I get sick on Friday!! On Sat. I thought for sure I was going to end up in the hospital for asthma. My treatments were lasting 1-2 hours instead of 4hrs. I had a migraine from all the albuterol, I toughed it out till Monday and went to the Chiro and by the end of the night Monday I was about 70% which was a huge improvement from about 30% over the weekend, Tuesday about 90% Now it's Thursday and I've only had 1 treatment since Monday night!!!
OH YA!! He he said "bring her in on Friday let me see how she's doing, and don't bring a check"
This is the third time he's adjusted the kids for no charge. WHAT DOCTOR DOES THAT!!! HE IS SO GREAT!!!

THE DREAM

ONE DAY I WILL HAVE A SCRAPBOOK ROOM THAT LOOKS LIKE THIS!!!


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http://kevinandamanda.com/

Angelee is 3!!

  

Coming home from the hospital



Three years ago today our family was blessed with a beautiful angel. Angelee Kayelynn Dyson born November 20, 2007. We were ready to have another little rug-rat running around with Gage-Rage almost four and and FINALLY getting a little easier. We found out 2 days after we returned home from Mexico. The pregnancy was great, even at the end. When I delivered my beautiful baby girl it was an amazing experience the birth went so smoothly and the recovery was super fast and easy. We didn't know what the sex of the baby was, so we had a few names picked out. We chose the name Angelee because we wanted something angelic like Trinity which means Holy Angel. We chose Kayelynn after Mom's Cousin Lindsay Kaye, who was a big part in having such wonderful delivery. She was Mom's Douala which is someone who helps with the delivery by giving the mother support and encouragement towards a goal of having a natural birth.

Angelee you have had the most beautiful blue eyes since you were born. You are so smart and strong. You were holding your head up by yourself at two hours old. I remember you had some HUGE feet. Our friends The Holdbrooks brought you some little newborn shoes in the hospital and they were about an inch too small for your ski-feet!!

Your blessing day!

4 months old

2 weeks old



Enjoying your 1st BiRtHDaY cAKe!!!



You have always been one step ahead with everything from talking to potty training. I hope that continues throughout life and you always excel. I love that you are so creative and love to draw and can be entertained for hours upon hours with a box of books or a pen and paper.You are so “happy go lucky” a quality you got from your Father. You are so kind and giving but still strong enough to stand your ground when needed.



YUMMY!!!





Lindsay Kaye and Angelee KayeLynn



One of your favorite foods the besides
the organic cookies from Costco
you make us buy everytime we go!!



July 4, 2010




One of your Birthday presents!!



3 Years old!!!

Dad loves that you are HaPPy and ALWAYS smiling! Damien likes how you say “blood” it goes something like “Bluuuud” I have to get that one on video for you! Trinity thinks it's funny that you hide stuff (including food) in the cabinet that you call the house. Gage likes that you color beautiful pictures with him!

Baby Girl, we hope you have a great birthday and We are very excited to see how you grow throughout the next year and throughout your life.

Love, Dad and Mom

They're at it AGAIN!!!

OK This is frustrating me so bad!!! Many of you know I've made the choice to stop vaccinating my kids after I saw a child regress right in front of me!! Dr. Wakefield had a study published in 1998 in the British medical journal ((which this interview talks about.)) I don't know why this is bothering me like this, because usually I just let all the negative things said go in one ear and out the other!! I actually didn't know about Dr. Wakefield's study until LONG, LONG  AFTER I made the choice to research nearly everything that I put into my children's bodies!! I know a lot of other Parents and Doctors on the autism sites aren't letting this bother them but I just feel as though there has NOT been enough research done ((IF ANY AT ALL)) on UN VACCINATED children and their health and development!! I'm not totally against vaccinations but I think their are too many way too early in life!! I think that it's NO coincidence AT ALL that once the amount of vaccines these kids are receiving triples the rate of AUTISM skyrockets. The chances of a child being diagnosed, has went from the 1980's.... ((1 to 2 in every 10,000)) http://ezinearticles.com/?Autism-Statistics-Information&id=1665735 and NOW it's ((1 in every 100)) how come these "medical" professionals aren't catching this?????????????

Link of the vaccines in 83 compared to 2007 http://www.generationrescue.org/pdf/cdc_comparison.pdf

I've heard of Doctors dropping children from their practices because their parents made the choice not vaccinate them......THIS IS LUDICROUS!!! I've heard this excuse "it puts other children in the office at risk"!!.........Here's what I have to say to that If you're vaccines work so DAMN well then how in the HELL are my unvaccinated kids going to hurt others?????? I know that babies aren't fully covered until they receive the full set on shots....If they even work!!! Luckily I don't have a DR like that... When he asked me why I'm not vaccinating I told him "a few people in my family had a bad reaction to the shots and are now on the spectrum" He said "Oh I see. How closely related are these members?" I told him "my cousin and my sister's child" He said "OH OK, well here are some papers for you to look at"..............OH OK it was that simple I was actually floored, he might know something!!!

On to the fact that my unvaccinated child is 10,000 times healthier that my vaccinated children were!! I have to admit that when I see acquaintances whose kids always have colds of green runny noses I feel bad for them, as I am thinking to myself hum....... Angelee hasn't had a runny nose or cough or cold in about two years now, and even then I was watching a child who was ALWAYS SICK, the same age as Ang and had been on antibiotics/cold meds and who knows what else, uncountable amount of times in the first year of life. With Damien I was adamant, the best parent in the world (or so I thought) about vaccinations. You bet I was in the office on the exact day they said he was due for them. That poor kid was sicker than a dog. Pneumonia 5 times by the time he was 2!! With Trinity we didn't have insurance so she didn't get any shots until after she was 2. She is so healthy I can count on one hand the times she has has a cold or runny nose for that matter. Gage was another one vaccinated "on schedule" until I became aware! He has been really sick also. I have had him tested and he does have severe allergies so a lot of the time I thought he was sick when he was younger it was his allergies. Which most parents would give meds for I choose to keep him away from the triggers.

I don't even want to get started on the intellectual differences I've witnessed that's for a whole other day!! You can guarantee I would put Angelee in the unvaccinated/vaccinated studies that J.D. is talking about in this interview.

I didn't write this to upset anybody or persuade people into doing what I do. My days of being vocal and trying to do what I call is help people become aware of what they put into their bodies ARE OVER!! I can now say I've done my research they can do theirs if they want!! I'm also up to listening to others research if they are up to listening to what I know : )!!! Enjoy the video!!!

OH YA ONE OF THE WORST THINGS YOU CAN SAY TO A NON-VACCINATING MAMA IS "YOUR LISTENING TO STUPID BLONDE PLAYBOY MODEL" !!!! referring to Jenny Macarthy

NO I RESPECT THE WORDS OF A MOTHER WHOSE CHILD SEIZURED AND STOPPED BREATHING IN HER ARMS AFTER A SERIES OF VACCINATIONS!!! OH YA...AND THOUSANDS OF PARENTS WHO AREN'T CELEBRITIES THAT HAVE HAD THEIR CHILDREN REGRESS WITHIN A FEW WEEKS OF HAVING SHOTS!!!

I Love You More Today Than Yesterday!!!

If you know Chris you know he's NOT a "sappy" man!! I am sometimes jealous of others whose husbands are "sappy"!! Well every once in a while he suprises me! Today he was laying in bed and I had the ipod on while I was cleaning the bedroom. I walked out of the room and he called me in and said everytime I hear this song it reminds me of you...It was a song by "DRAKE" I won't say what song but a good one I never thought would remind him of me ;-)...I sat down and cried without him noticing.


I went into the kitchen and next thing I knew he was sitting at the computer and this was what he wanted me to see. I always thought of "The Love Song" by the cure as our song but I guess we have a new song according to Chris this one is "more US"!

          Don't forget ot shut off my player I don't know how to LOL

                              
                   Chris may not be sappy all the time but, when he is... it sure makes me feel LOVED!!!